I take a deep breath in and let it go. This word has so many connotations for me.
I am a joiner. I am an extrovert. I like people. I thrive off energy of groups and iedas and laughter. I like to be a part of something bigger than myself, the conversations that keep you going, that make your heart move. The ideas that flow freely when you are having a really good conversation. I yearn for those moments where everything seems to fall into place and you've made a connection with others.
I am not in a good "joining" place right now. I am not sure how to fix that. Maybe because I like to join when I am invited. Maybe because it seems so daunting and overwhelming to find something to join - it is not as easy as it used to be to find like-minded souls and friends.
Join. It is an action. It requires me to do something. That is why I must breathe in and out deeply. I know I need to take that first step. I can only be a part of something if I give something up.
Though I am not writing this on a Friday...it is a part of a great community of writing that I hope to keep up with. Five minutes. Just write. No editing! More fun than it sounds :)
Thank you for the encouragement. I could feel myself joined in one of those grand conversations as I read your post. I was late joining in Five Minute Friday this week too, but I am glad that I was because I got to read your post! God bless.
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