Letters to myself

From the age of 11 to the age of 20 I wrote letters to myself ten years in the future. Not sure where I got the idea (I'm certain I read it somewhere, I was quite the bookworm). I'm also not sure how I managed to actually keep the letters and not read them for 10 whole years. I think I'd have a hard time not peaking now. It was a wonderful birthday present each each while it lasted. I regret now that I stopped. Here is the first letter...warning, very very deep material here.

I am a bit embarrassed and amazed that as an 11 year old I told myself at 21 to have good ambitions! The letters get more in depth and interesting as I get older (but never quite as amusing).

Me around 11 years old

I was thinking today that perhaps I should start writing to A in 10 years. Recently all my dreams and hopes have shifted to him, hopes for his future happiness, hopes that all his dreams come true, wishes for health and love and success and maybe even some "ambition." :) Writing letters to him would be easy. However, I bet as a 10 year old he might not care a bit.

So then I realized that I still exist as a person separate from A. While his future plays a huge role in my hopes and dreams, I can't just forget myself. I think it's easy for mothers to forget themselves in their children and I don't want to fall prey to this. So I will write a letter to myself and keep up my "ambitions" for future. That means I have to write a letter to myself at 44 (ack!). This might be the hardest letter I've ever written.

I have no idea what my life will be like at 44, but I'm going to start imagining it...It think it might actually be fun!